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pas siang gue sms (awalnya cuma iseng)

GUE : bang :)
NGENGES : hadir de :) lagi apa de ?
GUE : lagi bt bang
NGENGES : yeh kenapa de ?
GUE : gue putus bang, ga ada yang merhatiin gue lagi -_-
NGENGES : kan ada gue de, gue perhatiin ko kaya ade gue sendiri
GUE : takut ah bang
NGENGES : gapapa lagi de :)
GUE : ohiya CANTIK single noh bang
NGENGES : terus kenapa de ? gue udah males sama dia
GUE : yeh kenapa lu kan suka sama dia bang ?
NGENGES : sekarang dia udah ga jelas de, males gue
GUE : wah jual mahal
NGENGES : ga ada salahnya dong de :D
GUE : gue beli boleh ga bang ?
NGENGES : boleh de :)
GUE : lu ngerti maksud gue bang ?
NGENGES : ngerti de. lu mau jadi cewe gue kan
GUE : ga jadi ah bang takut sama CANTIK gue -,-
NGENGES : yeh kenapa takut de. kalo emang udah cinta mah apa urusan nya sama CANTIK
GUE : oh gitu
NGENGES : kalo lu mau pacaran sama gue ayo de tapi ga usah cerita sama CANTIK
GUE : takut ah bang
NGENGES : ga usah takut de :) yaudah ga perlu cerita sama CANTIK
GUE : gue ga mau ah bang. lu ga serius sih, nanti lu ngeboongin gue lagi :'(
NGENGES : demi de gue serius, ga boong. tapi terserah lu deh
GUE : yaudah deh bang
NGENGES : terus gimana de lu mau kan jadi cewe gue ?

xxx singkat cerita, gue jadian sama dia xxx

pas malemnya~

CANTIK : kamu jadian sama NGENGES de ? #jujur
GUE : iya ka
CANTIK : cie longlast ya !

jam 22.34 NGENGES sms GUE, pas baca smsnya SUMPAH DADA GUE NYESEK BANGET rasanya kiamat udah dateng -___-

abis itu si CANTIK sms gue juga

CANTIK : kamu putus sama NGENGES gara gara aku de ?

the end

== makasih banget deh buat ini semua, bahagia ya lu berduaaaaa ♥
sakitnya masih kerasa. damn !! ==

AFTERLIFE

Like walking into a dream, so unlike what you've seen
So unsure but it seems, ’cause we’ve been waiting for you
Fallen into this place, just giving you a small taste
Of your afterlife here so stay, you'll be back here soon anyway

I see a distant light, but girl this can't be right
Such a surreal place to see so how did this come to be
Arrived too early

And when I think of all the places I just don't belong
I've come to grips with life and realize this is going too far

I don't belong here, we gotta move on dear
Escape from this afterlife
’Cause this time I'm right to move on and on
Far away from here

A place of hope and no pain, perfect skies with no rain
Can leave this place but refrain, ’cause we've been waiting for you
Fallen into this place, just giving you a small taste
Of your afterlife here so stay, you'll be back here soon anyway

This peace on earth's not right (with my back against the wall)
No pain or sign of time (I’m much too young to fall)
So out of place don't wanna stay, I feel wrong and that's my sign
I've made up my mind

Give me your hand but realize I just wanna say goodbye
Please understand I have to leave and carry on my own life

I don't belong here, I gotta move on dear
escape from this afterlife
’Cause this time I'm right to move on and on,
far away from here

Got nothing against you and surely I'll miss you
This place full of peace and light, and I’d hope you might
Take me back inside when the time is right

Loved ones back home all crying ’cause they're already missing me
I pray by the grace of God that there's somebody listening
Give me a chance to be that person I wanna be
(I am unbroken; I’m choking on this ecstasy)
Oh Lord I'll try so hard but you gotta let go of me
(Unbreak me, unchain me, I need another chance to live)

I don't belong here, I gotta move on dear
escape from this afterlife
’Cause this time I'm right to move on and on,
far away from here

Got nothing against you and surely I'll miss you
This place full of peace and light, and I’d hope you might
Take me back inside when the time is right

cannibal corpse - i will kill you

Bleed for my pain
Revenge on treacherous snakes
They will pay

Slicing the flesh
Sculptured wounds my catharsis
I will stain

Into the heart
Needle injects gasoline
Convulsions

The one that they betrayed
Has made them this way

Plagued by the bastards
I will kill you
Killed by my rage

Scream at my face
The grisly scars went unavenged
Until now

Deep in the hole
You are gagged and scream aloud
But unheard

Choke on your vomit
You watch your hands cut off
Then your legs

The one that you betrayed
Will kill you this way

Scarred by the bastards
I will kill you
Killed by my rage
I must kill you

Into the throat
The scalpel slices
Warm blood sprays out
The gushing entices

Pull out your heart
And let you watch
Shove in your mouth
Then stab your crotch

I watch your agony

I am released
From years of pain
Your death averted
My becoming insane
You are dead

I have killed you

atur aku - burgerkill

Satu langkah ke depan dan tetap lurus..
Panggil aku keras kepala dan bodoh..
Lelah hanya fisik mental semata..
Tetap lurus karena ada harapan..

Keparat !

Kau halangi aku dalam berjalan..
Jatuhkanku bila memang kau mampu..
Racun aku dengan petuah kosongmu..
Racun aku dengan cara hidupmu..

Keparat !

Aku tak akan pernah beranjak..
Aku tak akan pernah berubah..
Aku tak akan mau dewasa..
Bila dewasa sepertimu aku tak mau..
Aku tak akan pernah beranjak..
Aku akan tetap berdiri..
Walau halangan selalu tetap membayangi..

Satu langkahy besar tetap ke depan..
Tetap lurus karena ada harapan..
Lelah hanya fisik mental semata..
Tetap laju terbuka dan terpola..
Coba halangi,coba jatuhkan..
Percuma karena aku bertahan..
dewasa aku tak akan berubah..
Ini aku ku atur jalan hidupku..

anjing tanah - burgerkill

Anjing tanah.. Liar!
Hisap jiwaku (Sampah) binatang!
Hunus nafsuku, terjerat setan!

Nafsu yang terus menjalar, menusuk nadi tak pernah
berhenti, terus kau rayu aku, Jalang!

Anjing tanah..

Kau, racun nafsu terliar
Injak kerdil jiwa
Rapuh asaku..

Anjing tanah, liar..
Tampar norma (rendah) binatang
Rajam otakku, menjerat..

Nafsu yang terus membakar hanguskan religi tanpa terhalang,
terus kau ikat aku, Jalang!

Anjing, lantang kau menyalak
Julurkan lidah liurmu
Kau nikmati panas darahku,
Kau lucuti bijak akalku
Kau nikmati panas nafsuku
Kau lucuti...

caliban - the 7th cross

Here we march through the snow, here we lie in the mud.
The wind aches like a thousand on my skin, my walk mechanic.

My thoughts far away, unable to act, feel numb to the distress.
I can't remember freedom, forgot all faces I loved.
 

No cry for help through the wire, my existence a number on my skin.
It will take all my power, my last will to live.
I hear the sirens.
Searching lights roam through the night, reports, bloodhounds and hunters – orders are clear, our tombs already dug.

Our names on the crosses.
I'm running, no looking back, no feelings at all, will I be free?
Will I be free at last?
Will I ever kiss your face again?

The sun will be mine again and I'll feel the rain, feelings return from my body.
I can't believe that I'm still alive.
Now I remember your face, your words, your smile.

shadow of sorrow - burgerkill

Today my heart is dying
No more feeling, just a fucking thing...
Bitter taste of desperate...

Reject, dissapoint is the word
For many excuses
I've lost in my own faith...

Sold my heart to nothingness
Broken faith I cannot fix
My heart is dying...

Give me one last breath
To prove myself right

Shadow Of Sorrow...
Just A fucking thing,
Kill Me!

Give me one last breath
To prove myself right
Give me one last breath
To live my way, To live my hate...

Shadow Of Sorrow...
Dying...

nightmare

Avenged Sevenfold - Nightmare

NIGHTMARE!
Now your nightmare comes to life.

Dragged you down below
Down to the devils show
To be his guest forever
Peace of mind is less than never

Hate to twist your mind
But God ain't on your side
An old acquaintance severed
Burn the world your last endeavor

Flesh is burning
You can smell it in the air
Cause men like you have such an easy soul to steal (steal)

So stand in line while they ink numbers in your head
You're now a slave until the end of time here

Nothing stops the madness turning, haunting, yearning pull the trigger

You should have known
The price of evil
And it hurts to know that you belong here
Yeah
Oooooooh
It's your fucking nightmare
While your nightmare comes to life

Can't wake up in sweat
Cause it ain't over yet
Still dancing with your demons
Victim of your own creation

Beyond the will to fight
Where all that's wrong is right
Where hate don't need a reason
Loathing self-assassination

You've been lied to
Just to rape you of your sight
And now they have the nerve to tell you how to feel (feel)

So sedated as they medicate your brain
And while you slowly go insane they tell ya
"Given with the best intentions, help you with your complications"

You should have known
The price of evil
And it hurts to know that you belong here
Yeah
No one to call
Everybody to fear
Your tragic fate
Is looking so clear
Yeah
Oooooooh
It's your fucking nightmare
HA! HA! HA! HA!

(Break)

(Maniacal laughter)
Fight (Fight! ). not to fail (fail! )
Not to fall (fall! )
Or you'll end up like the others

Die (Die! ), die again (die! )
Drenched in sin (sin! )
With no respect for another
OH!

Down(Down! ), feel the fire(fire! )
Feel the hate(hate! )
Your pain is what we desire

Lost (Lost! ), hit the wall (wall! )
Watch you crawl (crawl! )
Such a replaceable liar

And I know you hear their voices
(Calling from above)
And I know they may seem real
(These signals of love)
But our life's made up of choices
(Some without appeal)
They took for granted your soul
And it's ours now to steal

As your nightmare comes to life

You should have known
The price of evil
And it hurts to know that you belong here
Yeah
No one to call
Everybody to fear
Your tragic fate
Is looking so clear
Yeah
Oooooooh
It's your fucking nightmare